Anyways, might not go school tomorrow coz well my clarinet exam is on saturday and i want my last day to practice to count, coz fuckk. I'm so shit at sight reading. I was having my lesson yesterday and my teacher was like 'your scales are good! Yeah your songs sound ready too, they've improved heaps! But your sight reading is CRAP' Well said. Well said. LOL so I pretty much, I have to somehow know this shit and ughh I just seriously want to curl up in bed and lay there until it's over. But ofc I can't coz it's my exam. Weelllll, my teacher being the awesome person she is, told me a funny story which happened to a friend or something. They were a saxophone player and apparently the b flat on the sax is hard to play and he googled the examiner who turned out to be a clarinet player. And in the exam, when asked to play a b flat scale they played a b and this person not having perfect pitch, did not notice and gave them a tick :p So we decided to google my examiner. All we got was that he had a phd (but that was self explanatory since it said doctor on my exam notification thin) and that he specialises in musical theory. So i'm pretty much gonna be quizzed to death on music theory LOL.
Okay just googled him now and omg there are too many ian cook's. Anyways I think I found the real guy and he works at uni of newcastle and omggg nooo. He plays and teaches clarinet :( and he conducts orchestras and bands. Fuck, he'll know how bad I am. I'm gonna die ;_;
Even check for yourself http://www.newcastle.edu.au//staff/research-profile/Ian_Cook/
I hope he's an easy marker or takes sympathy on my shaking hands of nervousness. Coz with my nerves, I get total mindblanks and I seriously cant remember a thing and my hands are shaky so everything just pretty much sucks.
I hope I get at least a B. Then my life will go on normally. If I fail then omg. There is no answer. I'd like die. D:
Okay gonna stop talking about it, feeling the nerves already.
xoxo Bernice
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